Chocolate for breakfast, morning tea, second breakfast , elevenses etc....

My story. Shocking expose on an addiction out of control.

I crave chocolate on a daily sometimes hourly basis.

That's it - it's out there. Judge me as you will but the first sign of a problem is admitting it so there were have it. I have come out of the wrapper. I . . . . am a chocaholic (insert applause and knowing smiles).

The other day I had 3/4 of a packet of chocolate biscuits on the way to work for breakfast. On the same day I had half a packet of jaffas for lunch. (insert 'thanks for sharing')

White chocolate chip & blueberry scones from BD were the latest big thing to catch my eye. They are so so so so adictive and therefore not my fault that I love them and want to have them.

I needed help. I recalled a friend telling me of her ban on chocolate for a year whilst studying so I knew it could be done. Last week I set myself the challenge of giving up my beloved chocolate for a whole year. I have fallen of the wagon once at the two day mark and had two - ok five chocolate biscuits (ok it was seven). Was it worth it? Hell yes.

Did I get back on the wagon (wheel :) ) well of course I did. Like any addiction you fall off it from time to time but the important thing (according to my friend in drug & achohol councelling) was that I keep going & it (apparently) gets easier to say no or at least the time between a slip back into king size tim tam slams is longer.

Has it been easier since the first fall? Yeah, totally. I don't really want it (much). I have discovered some thing else called 'fruit' and 'vegetables' AND there are things you can do with them to make them edible.
Buying them for a start.

My diet in the last week has never included so much fibre and natural sugar. I really don't know what is going on. Suddenly my craving for the smooth texture of sweet sweet milky chocolate goodness is replaced with a joy for eating a capsicum while I work & half a whole celery to tide me over till lunch. What the #$% is going on? Where did my craving go for crying out loud? Have I been duped for all these years to think that I need chocolate to be a whole person. Stuff that. CHOCOLATE DOES NOT DAMN WELL COMPLETE ME!

Recently, friends & I had discovered the rationalle for fasting and I learned that denying myself meals for 24 hours was achievable.
In fact, not being ruled by the body has been a massive thing for me.

I have bitten my nails till they bled since I was a little kid and recently tried a bit of self control and tried not to. My nails are actually longer than they have been in years and look great.

Back to the chocolate thing. I've discovered a lot of myths about chocolate and I'll write more as I learn the technical sides. For now, too much sugar is evil for my body. It shall be banished as shall the 6 monthly cheeseburger that always makes me feel sick despite my trust that "this time will be different.'